The Fear of Not Existing

A woman describes the fear of not existing, which seems to come from the childhood message that she shouldn't exist. It feels like resistance now, during meditation, in letting go of the sense of the separate self. Rupert responds that the word 'nothing' or 'emptiness' is rarely used because of a negative connotation, but our self that is known by finite mind is empty, which can be disturbing for the separate self, because it feels like it's going to die, hence resistance and fear. This is a misplaced resistance in that what you are is not limited to your personal experience, yet it comes from the intuition that these experiences are a veil over your true nature. The dissolution of everything we believe limits us and the recognition of the unlimited is what is meant by 'die before you die’.

From event 14 - 18 January, 2022 Five Day Retreat at Froyle Park – 14th to 18th January

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